Wow, this has been quite the evening. Originally I was to go to a friends place to watch Higher Learning (great movie!), but those plans received an impromptu shafting. So I’ve spent the night talking to my girlfriend on the phone (always an amazing time) and chatting with friends on icq. I’ve also made some new friends. Sid and Jill (other OE writers, Jill is currently MIA), have been newly added to my icq list. Talking to new people is always interesting, as well as inspiring.

The whole time I listen to my music on Winamp. I love this thing. It’s a completely oblivious and unbiased jukebox. It doesn’t care what it’s just played, it doesn’t care what it plays next. I listen to such a wide variety of music, my computer could never be a commercial radio. I don’t care what station you’re listening to, you will never hear Michael Jackson followed by Ravi Shankar. Or Weezer right after Bach’s Tocatta and Fugue in D minor. You will never hear that on any radio station. I heard it all tonight. Totally random. But still a perfect mix.

Wes keeps sending me music files of his band (of which Greg is also a member). These tunes are soooo good!! Damn good! I’m really happy for them that they can do this stuff, and make such great music, but at the same time I’m jealous. I’m jealous because that used to be me. Music was my life, it still is, but it’s a life I’m not supposed to have right now. I’m supposed to be in school, learning laws and rules and numbers. No room for creativity here. I can’t do that life anymore. I have to return to music. I’ve been away from it for too long now, I’ve been neglecting it. My bass doesn’t quite groove the way it used to. Soon though…

Soon I’ll shed the weight of this institution from my shoulders and replace it with the weight of my instrument. My fingers are tingling just thinking about it. Or maybe that’s numbness setting in. It’s late, and I have another day at the office tomorrow. Back to the race for at least one more day.