Mental Sludge
I feel like getting drunk, or chain smoking, or doing some drug or another, anything that makes feeling bored and useless seem entertaining. Why is it regardless of the plans you’ve got for yourself you can fall in that rut, that tiny meaningless pothole that makes everything look ten feet tall, makes your dreams seem unatainable. I go through the days one after another pushing ahead knowing if i can just hold out to “this day” i’ll make it. Beating off that smothering depression with a filled day planner and the insistence that i’m beyond it now and it can’t catch me, take me over, make me it’s puppet again. It won’t win but it’s tiring as all hell. Fuck it i need a smoke…….i’ll quit another time.
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Why would U want to throw your life away on drugs…it’s sooo naive….its people like you that make me sick!!!!!
By NOT A DUMB DRUGGIE LIKE LIZ!!! on 08.12.03 12:05 pm
Wow! You really stand behind your convictions then staying anonymous i’m sure you’ll change the world and make it a better place
By Liz on 08.14.03 11:46 am
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