it’s been me against the world for so long.
i missed half of my life, fighting for myself.
do i have it all wrong?
i hope not.
i carry my brothers.
i help friends of friends………….
i try to be the last person you expected me to be.
i work ovetime, so i can take you out.
and i get shit on, like a common white-trash turd.

no, i won’t stop.
i can’t.
i’ve been through too hard a time to treat people like i know.
i think it’s time that we showed people the way to be treated.
the way we want to.
the way we HAVEN’T been.
we’ve all done some fucked up shit, but there’s always someone there to hold you up–even if you don’t want it.
for those of you who have been to prison……..
“i’m going to a place where the tough guys go, and they come out even tougher…”—–
it doesn’t have to be like that.
take the hard life, and be a better person for it.
take the cold heart you’ve earned, and use it to help others……
it’s a hard lesson that i’ve learned.
but it’s one that i will always remember.

just remember the smile that your mother gave you when you were nice to her.
remember the smile she gave you when you made her breakfast in bed, for no reason, or passed your driving test, or made the hockey team…
have pride in your kind…
treat them like you want to be treated.
i know i’ve said some hard things, and i still mean them.
i never forget what i have learned, the hard way.
i still hate some people.
i still have love for some.
i still carry a lot. and i get stronger every day.
i still have a LOT of hope for some. this is for you, R.
don’t let me down now—-this is the time when i need to lean on
someone………..
all i have is a hard soul, and a cold heart….
don’t travel my path.