Hey everyone… what’s up? I’m just sayin hi since I haven’t been to this site in awhile. My birthday’s comin up… August 21st. Hope ya’ll are doin well.

On my 13th birthday, my dad gave me a kitten. She was beautiful. She had long hair and was very soft. She looked mostly light brown but had a mix of lots of colours in her. She had big green eyes and her name was Johnny.

Johnny was a social cat, when she was outside. In the summer she came inside maybe once a day to eat, then was right back out again within the hour. In winter she grew stir crazy and hissed at everyone in the house, except me.

She was so cool. If you’re a cat person then you understand how cool one can be if their yours. She was, I have to say, the best cat I’ve ever had.

She’s been missing for 4 weeks now. It’s not like her to not be around, and I don’t know what happened to her. I’ve called all the neighbours and my dad even asked someone he knew who does clean up of the roads. She’s gone. I know she’s dead. July 1st was her 8th birthday, but she missed it. I guess this post is just in memory of my Johnny, because I love her so much.

I didn’t mean to hit him. I was upset. I was driving fast. I feel so horrible. I freaked out. I saw him and had time to scream before my car hit him, then I burst into tears.

I was coming home from my boyfriend’s house so I called him and made his roommate wake him up. I cried and cried and finally told him what I had hit: a racoon. He told me to relax and drive a bit slower, go home and go to bed.

A racoon. I guess it wasn’t too horrible, but I’d never killed an animal till lastnight. I’m still upset. I’m sorry.

Faery Prayer
This offering can be used as a daily prayer or ritual invocation. To begin, find a quiet place where you will not be disturbed. You may want to light a Faery Candle to help you draw in the energies of the Sidhe. Sit comfortably, relaxing your body with rhythmic breathing. Allow your mind to settle, releasing any errant thoughts. When you feel completely calm and at peace, ring a small bell three times, and begin your prayer. As you speak, visualize images of the Good Folk. See the light of their spirits gathering all around you. Say the prayer one or three times, and then ring the bell seven times. Wait in silence for any communion or communication the Faery might offer.

Mist-clad in the light of the moon
Starspun seekers - I search for thee!
Faery light - I ask thy boon
Of branch and thorn and Elder tree!
Wood woven creatures, shadow weavers
River keepers - come to me!
Just beyond reaching
Never in keeping
Spirits of Faery - I call unto thee!
Wind-hewn wildness
Dark and brightness
Spiral enchantments - born of the sky!
Cradle me with eleven hands,
Abide with me, thy human child!

When you are ready to return to your ordinary consciousness, ring the bell three times and with deep full breaths, inhale vital energy and vitality. Record any special experiences in a journal so that you will retain them in full detail.

Blessed Be.

So the first week of my vacation has concluded, and I’ve learned a lot about myself surprizingly. I haven’t checked this website in a long time because I’ve had no access to a computer. Though I still feel the need to write about zodiac signs and mystical creatures, I am unable to do it on Online Epiphany as often as I’d like to. I’m trying to learn Tarot right now, but through Brian Froud’s faery cards, which are extremely helpful and interesting. My vacation has so far allowed me to do things like workout, suntan, start Yoga, and has cleared my mind. I have a clear view of what’s to come and what I want. It’s a great feeling of safety and comfort, I recommend it.

Just a quick note to tell the readers that Wes turns 21 tomorrow, April 27th. Congrats Wes… just a bit older than me (damn you). Next time you go to the States you can be guilt-free. Have fun.

I got a new job. My Starbucks career is almost at an end! Remember how much I hated it? I still do… but it’s weird now. I haven’t had a new job in over a year and a half, and now I’m faced with one.

The Toronto Dominion Bank hired me. I’m so excited, I start on May 22nd. I’m giving two weeks at Starbucks (and getting all I can outta my benefits before I go), taking two weeks off to relax and regroup, and then I start my new career as a bank teller.

I’ve been blissfully happy just knowing that I’m out of that place (and also sad because if I want something now, I have to ~gasp~ PAY for it). It’s all good though, just really exciting.

Today’s date is 4/20… it’s not the time, but close to it. I’m a stoner so I wanted to pay tribute.

I have a picture of you on my shelf. You and all my other friends from before. You’re all still my friends, but times have changed and that was years ago. I forgot about the pictures, that they were there, that you were looking at me. But today I noticed.

I studied the look on your face that day, what you must have been thinking while we got our picture taken. It’s weird to think what we went through, what just a simple picture means, but it’s there ya know, and I remembered.

There’s a select few that are out on the shelf gazing into my room, which is good because I made the right choice on who gets to be out. The others are in an album somewhere, under my bed I think.

I forgot what it meant ya know, to have your picture on my shelf. The comfort that comes with looking at you is deep. I can remember you at that moment in my moments of indecisiveness. It’s a cool thing, to have that power over me, I think.

Everyone should remember why they put those certain people up around there room, and why that event was important. It’s a wicked thing to remember ya know… empowering.

is there no way out
i’m here and i wonder if i’m lost
’cause i can’t seem to understand
the way i feel
i’m not here to be a creep
i’m just feeling
incomplete
take me home

TREVOR HURST