ever have one pf those days where nothing goes right? and by nothing i mean everything you can even imagine? and by days i really mean weeks?

i’m having it right now. worst ever. first, i’ve been unemployed for far too long to keep myself busy (somehow, i’ve been finding joy in creating linux gdm login managers and lotsa porn).
second, i thought it would be a cool thing to do to match my computer case color with the shit creamy color that cd-rom and such comes in. it all went pretty well–i got my shit all painted up, my windows tinted and my new lights wired and working with switches. then the troubles started.

soon as i got everything back together and i began powering up, i noticed that cd-r trray didn’t want to close. hmm–this has happened before and punching it didn’t work then either. tried closing it for about an hour, and then quit. time to get my tools and fuck with shit again.
get the damn thing apart, reseat the tray and everything is working good before powering back up. power back up, it closes but now won’t open…. back apart and now i realize that the original problem was the gear that ran the tray. the leading edge tooth is busted. fuck–so i fashion a new tooth out of super glue and lots of beer for me and a knife and fine tooth file. looks cool, works decent.
only problem is that the shit won’t align again—so i think “maybe now is the time to send it back to the company and have them fix it” they’re not in business anymore (i’ve had this thing for 5 years, only 3 discs have burned bad–it would have been worth it).
ok, so i need a new burner—only problem is that i use scsi shit, so i can’t just pick up some shitty ide burner, the one you have costs me an extra $100. that’s a shitload of cash when you aren’t working.

so i think, ok–no problem. i ‘ll just watch ebay until something comes along that will work for me. i’m still waiting. is scsi dead or what? that shit rules the world.

while i am looking at shit, i turn my head and my monitor’s screen gets all fucked up. not good.
teevee place can’t fix it, and to send it anywhere to get fixed, i could get a new one.
so i go to local computer store, but they have no 21″ monitors there.
i decide that i will pick up a 20″, but my money is no good there because i only have starter checks from my new bank. i’m never shopping there again, because i know the people who work there and i’ve spent almost 3 grand in the past 2 years. assholes.
look online, and my monitor is still selling for almost $500. i’m fucked-and i got all this shit i gotta do, like get a job.

so then i get this lead on a company. call the tech officer and everthing seems cool; they need a linux guy who does perl and just generally rules.
only problem is that they also want me to know php. to me, this is easy since i know c, and i know perl–php is a hybrid of both. and now the whole monitor thing comes into play.

i am so angry. i think i’ve finally realized today that i have a huge anger problem. especially after i said to the workers “fuck you. you want to be a funnyman? i can be fucking funny too..”
i wish i was the hulk sometimes—just so i could smash shit when i got angry.

so now i sit here on a friend’s geekbox waiting for a call so i can get a job so i can get a monitor so i can get a cd-r and i can start paying my jeep payments.

i am so close to going back into the military it should scare most people…iraq? i don’t really care about that. to me, it’s a job and one i do well. but this time i wouldn.t go marine corps–i think i’d go navy. finish officer training and then straight to buds training and make those pussies cry. i’ve seen then first hand out on coronado island CA, and i wasn’t impressed.
i’ve got all the qualifications for it–if nothing happens soon in what i want to do, it might be my only option…..