I last saw my psychologist a couple days ago. She’s the best doctor I’ve ever had! A little odd, maybe, but great none the less. Lately I feel like I’m dating her though. Everytime I go in she constantly bothers me about forming emotional bonds with people & questions me on why I’m not bonding with her that way. For god’s sakes! She’s my psych. I joke with her because she knows how I feel & I ask her silly questions like ‘do you feel stagnate, dear?’

I don’t get how I’m suppose to bond with someone who I’ve never spent a night watching tv with or playing a game of pool with. How does she expect me to bond with her when she does nothing but sit in her chair & watch my cry when that happens? I don’t get it. Maybe I’m fucked up in that way, but can you bond with someone who reacts that way? Who does nothing to create a bond with you? Sure, she listens well to my problems & she’s there when I need someone to talk to but we don’t have a relationship outside of the hospital. Outside of that office of hers with its big books on psychology & every immaginable type of abuse. There’s more to relationships than a good ear & someone who’s always there. There is.

You have to be casual sometimes.